• Fake It ’til You Make It!

    I couldn’t end this day without sharing this post on Humans of New York page in Facebook.

    I was tired of working retail, so I lied on my resume and said that I had bookkeeper experience. I learned as much as I could from Google before the job interview, and printed out balance sheets to practice on. After I got the job, I read as much as I could every morning on the train. It was nerve wracking at first, but I presented the numbers at the end of the month, and everything checked out. May not have been the best way to get a job, but hey– I’ve got a son to look out for.

    Hit me so hard. I easily get moved with stories that I can relate so much. I am fragile. I cried a little with this.

    I always seek stories such as this because it brings me back to sanity. Most of the time, unfortunately, I get overwhelmed with non sense things. I forget about life. I forget about what the ground feels like. Problems easily get the worst of me.

    Then there are these stories that help me to be humble again. To gain back my perseverance and how was life for me when I didn’t have much. To be that person again that pretends to know of things he was curious/passionate about but because of hard work, he somehow made it.

    I know it needs work again. And i’ll work harder.

  • The Only Home We’ve Ever Known

    Short post about this good video that completely made my day.  A quick realization that hit me right in the deepest of my consciousness. This land that we are standing on at this very moment is only a pixel, dot, very small fraction of the cosmic arena. It is indeed the only home we have ever known so why not make the most of it.  Why not just cherish and always consider it as a humbling experience.

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b58SfRphkKc&app=desktop

  • Fatherhood

    How actually hard to be a father? Not going to be a father yet, though hopefully in the future, but for the purpose of trying to figure out why in the world my own father is such out of the context.

    I can’t shake off the fact that he is incapable with his very capable body of carrying out the tasks that a father should. I know no one is perfect but at least one should try to be.

    Ever since, I have weak communication with him while living under the same roof. Let’s say my dark past has something to do with him. He is not entirely how he was compared before though, now is a little okay, but I couldn’t see any clear signs that he make up for what he did before, most especially keeping his fatherhood job. Of course I am not asking him to do all as we are very much willing to back him up but there has to be an effort first. Could you just imagine how I crave for someone to look up to that knows how to stand up and be a man for his family.

    I hate how he’s a drunkard. He smokes and he drinks a lot. His youth has gone way past for him. I just wanted him to think of the family first. It seems like he’s much happier with his friends around because for him the family puts too much burden and pressure, where in fact I, personally, would just like to see that he has to show care for family esp. for mom. Not just when he feels like doing it or when he’s under the spell of beers.

    I could say I care less for him as oppose to how massively thankful I am for my mother. She stood as half father while everything was chaotic before.

    Still clueless of what fatherhood is. For some, the experience with their father figure might be surreal and heaven. It’s just sucks for me. Or in this life, I have been challenged to travel a path to become someone who knows to be a man by having someone who shows you the other way around.

  • A Year Anniversary of Your Ever After Studios

    The cool guys of the wedding photography team in Davao founded by Raphael Banta and Joemar Lamata just celebrated their 1yr anniversary since they have decided to put up a studio.

    3 months after the birth of the studio, I was privately messaged by Raph, closed friend of my brother who happens to be the co founder of the photography studio, to work with them as part time photo editor. We’re friends in fb. He might have seen few of my photography works and decided to take on hiring me to help their massively growing clients with wedding photo editing. I was flattered and filled with excitement. It was never a mistake for me to to say yes to their offer and as of now I am editing the 9th set from YEA studio.

    Raph is someone I shared with few of my visions in life including creative esp. interior design matters. Recently, they have re-organized their office setup (2.0 as I fondly call it) and he keeps on offering me to work in their office even before, wether it’s web development or online editing works. Now that the setup is partially transformed into somewhat more artsy way, there’s a chance that I might going to work in there to do freelance or photo editing jobs.

    Your Ever After Team have been really welcoming. I am very greatful to be part of their 1yr anniversary with their studio. I can’t wait for what’s up for them and how will my relationship with them improve over the coming months.

  • Here We Go Again

    Last night I watched a video of Matt Mullenweg sharing how he started WordPress. It never gets old to me the story of how this powerful CMS came to life. It brings me back to why I fell in love in the web and how it sparks me in making something for the web. I’ve been thinking lately on how I could get out in WordPress and start to learn a more complicated platforms or tools. But there’s something in WordPress that keeps me from it. Its like magic.